Doing well. I've been generally feeling a lot better. Not so tired and awful and depressed. This is great news. I eat like 4-5 actual meals a day now though. I eat breakfast and by 10:30-11:00 I'm really hungry again. And I usually eat a second lunch later in the afternoon and dinner. And always ice cream or cookies before bed.
Sleeping a little better too... but that's probably because Lila's been sleeping better. If we don't get to bed early enough, I get SO TIRED and then start having crazy depressed thoughts (not really crazy, I just start feeling miserable about life), so I then I know I need to get myself to bed asap.
Having a more positive attitude about everything too. Excited for our next appointment and for things to start feeling more "real."
I get the same way when I stay up too late...start thinking about things, and then the next day it's such a different (better) perspective. :)
ReplyDeleteWhat you said before about not being as excited about #2. Well, I felt like that through the whole thing with Jane. Even at the end, I wasn't in a huge rush to get her to come (she came early anyways, but you know how you just can't wait to meet #1). Honestly, even after she came, of course I loved her, but I didn't have the same connection with Katie, and she was a cranky baby because of tummy troubles for the first two months, and when I got overtired, I'd torture myself with the thoughts that I loved Katie more than Jane. And it was true, in a way. I was concerned about Katie even when I was taking care of Jane. I felt awful having to divide my time between them and began to understand how people can have just one child. It's definitely different having two, and it's not just logistics that makes it harder. But it's SO worth it. Of course I love Jane, and some days I love her more than Katie. :) Haha. But it's not going to be the same, so if you expect and accept that, maybe you'll feel better about it. Motherhood is tough. You're doing great!